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I love my Mr. Hammer.

Tomorrow is a VERY exciting day for us! We move into our cute little "temple house"! (Its across the road from the temple. :) This house is everything I have ever wanted in a first house! (except that it is a rental) I just love the old details and hardwood floors and feel of it. Not to mention it has a HUGE shower. ha

The best part about this is this is going to be OUR home. The Tyler Hammer family home. This is an extremely exciting thing to me! I cant wait to have him all to myself again!

btw.. Tylers parents have been GREAT! Far and beyond but its time to be on our own with our own family and our own traditions! :)

Charly is going to love it!

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Sorry it has been so long since I have posted but I really wanted pictures ready when I posted again. We all saw how sweet Mr. Hammer is with is last post. He is the most amazing man EVER! He always goes one step beyond! I love you!

I went wandering through the wilderness with my new family to find a christmas tree! No joke! Like in the wilderness wilderness! I didnt even know people did this. I figured if you wanted a real tree you when to a tree yard or something... not here in utahville.. you go wandering in the cold and snow to find a real real tree.. and we did! :) Also my cute little niece and nephew just were the perfect models so I took advantage of that!!

So here it is. We have CHARLY! We love Charly. I tought him how to give kisses. Its so funny! :)

Alot has happened. My Momma came down for Janies wedding so we got to spend time with her, K, and RJ (Ninja, Cheeks, Muffin, Gavin.....)! That was great! Tyler took K and I flying while they were here. Its the most amazing thing to watch him fly and talk pilot talk. It amazes me! HE'S A PILOT! Its so cool!

So here is the update from Christmas Village. AMAZING! Well actually freezing but it was a wonderful date with my love!

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Here I am. Mr. Hammer. I have the most amazing wife in the history of the world!!!!

I love her so much. That Mrs. Hammer just makes me so happy!!!!

So I was all worried this morning about taking my math final (which I completely bombed) and Mrs. Hammer texts me and tells me about a great idea that she has!!! She says that we should go to christmas village in ogden tonight after the family christmas party!!! I thought, "What an amazing idea!!!"

Then she adds, "We could get hot chocolate and then go to the village!!!" I am so excited. I love to just be with Mrs. Hammer. I don't care what we are doing, I just want to hold her close and let her know how much I care about her!!!! She is my whole world and I can't wait for that hot chocolate and walk through a cold park!!! Yeah, I mention cold cuz that makes her want to hold on to me even tighter than she already does!!!

I love you Mrs. Hammer!!!!

INTERNITY!!!!

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I love Mr. Hammer.

He has always and will always be so AMAZING to me.

:)

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I really wanted to start my next post with pictures. But.. I wanted something for Mr. Hammer to read. :)

This morning when we woke up Mr. Hammer says he knows what we are gonna do saturday.. stay in bed all day! I have always thought of Mr. Hammer as a smart man.. WOW he has just blown me away in awe of this wonderful idea! I CANT WAIT! (I love sleep! and I LOVE MR. HAMMER! together is pure bliss!!)

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Yesterday was Thanksgiving. It was a good day. Mr. Hammer spent all day with having random fun adventures. (Like going on a scooter ride with a Harley;)

Today we bought a new camera for all of our family adventures! We want to be able to look back over our lives and have lots of wonderful memories caught on film (or however these digital things are stored) Really we got it one day for when we have kids. To save those memories for us and for them. My parents were always addicted to taking pictures we have pictures of EVERYTHING. Boxes and boxes of pictures and digital file after file. I used to hate taking so many pictures as a child but some of my favorite memories of late are the ones where we all (the siblings) sit down and go through them... and laugh!

I want this for our family now and in the furture! So... maybe I just might start positng pictures... as soon as we figure out how to even take a picture with the dang thing. I couldnt even figure out how to take the cover off to put the lense on... HAHA this is going to be a fun adventure for us!

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Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Weird. It doesnt feel like it at all. Maybe because nothing has changed in my life or I havent made any plans to look forward to tomorrow so until the actual day its just another week. I was thinking about how I want to go to Wyoming to see my parents and siblings. Who wouldnt? But one thing I am thankful for is I get to spend this first holiday together with my eternal family. Mr. Hammer and Charly! This is where my heart and love is. Right beside me.

Maybe we will go to Wyoming for Christmas?? ;)

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Today I was going to go to lunch with some work people and a friend that is in town. This means Mr. Hammer and I dont see each other all day. sad. Well I wanted to go to this lunch so we were gonna tough it out. ;) Well I just got news that Michelle cant make it (the reason I was going) so now I get to spend luch with Mr. Hammer which is very very exciting to me!

Also I think I have devolped a problem... Last night while Mr. Hammer and I were driving home from work we were talking about football. Not a surprise for Mr. Hammer. The problem here is i caught myself enjoying the conversation. That is a problem. ;)

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Today I nothing has happened. I havent been thinking about anything really.

Although I did find out that the coolant leak in the car is not only the $1000 job we thought it was gonna be but my tech buddy at work is going to do the job for just the cost of the parts so... it went from $1000 to like $150.... HAPPINESS! :)

One thing I was thinking about last night was how much I love the feeling I feel when Mr. Hammer and I are sharing with each other or are talking totally open. Its amazing. I feel so close to him. Its wonderful.

I did want Mr. Hammer to know that I loved sharing those things with him last night! I know at first it didnt sound like it but Im gald you have these wonderful memories to share. Sorry Im a bad wife at listening to them in the right attitude.

Also I was thinking about all the little things Mr. Hammer does for me. Like run through the snow to go back inside so I could have honey mustard. Or add filling up my water bottle to his nightly rutine. And other little acts of love he does for me that mean alot! I dont want them to go unnoticed. :)

Thanks Mr. Hammer.

I love you.

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One of my all time favorite things about Mr. Hammer is he never fails to say wonderfully sweet things to me everyday. Now this may seem cheesy and whatevers but we all know when it is just you and your love you adore it when he adores you. Basically I love him. He never lets me forget how much he adores and loves me. He is DA BES!

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Mr. Hammer went flying today!

He was really excited which makes me REALLY excited too! I love how excited he gets over his stupid planes. ;)

Thinking about flying today made me a little homesick for Mississippi tho. Maybe Mr. Hammer will fly me!

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We have a crazy rat dog.

Last night we gave Charly a bath. Under all that fur is a rat! Needless to say Charly is one UGLY wet dog! God knew what he was doing when he put fur to cover that ugly beast up!

So I washed him with this no tears puppy shampoo while Mr. Hammer tried to keep him from climbing/jumping out of the tub. Stupid dog. Well I dont know what kind of drug they put in that stuff but holy crap! That dog was going crazy! Just running and jumping and bitting and rubbing on everything he can find! I know this doesnt sound any different then the normal Charly but just think x2 and you have Charly on drugged shampoo!

He's calmed back to normal now and smells wonderful! Can't wait til next time..... :S

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There is nothing more AMAZING in this world to me then my Mr. Hammer.

:)

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I love Mr. Hammer. Sometimes he feels like he needs to ask if Im for sure... Well Mr. Hammer I am for sure about one thing. I LOVE YOU!

Last night he told me one of his favorite memories of me.

I have many favorites memories of us.

My favorite was the night of the ferris wheel. I love ferris wheel rides with Mr. Hammer and Mexican children. ;)

I loved it when he tricked me into thinking he was gonna propose in SLC and surprised me!

When we were to busy having fun together to realize Charly had gotten into the cheese dip and had cheese face. And the following bath of the ugliest wet dog you have ever seen!

I loved our first plane ride together. When I realized how niiiice Mr. Hammer looks in his pilot pants.

I loved when he held me and we watched pocohantas the same night I had broken up and we didnt know where we stood but I was just enjoying the moment.

The first night we took Mo for a test drive and after we ate he opened PEG's door for me and I said thank you baby and he said your welcome sweetheart. I dont know why but when he said that to me my little heart just went racing!

When he spent all that time putting the grill together to find out he put it on backwards...FUNNY!

Dinner and 2 movies!

I had so much fun causing a war with him when I would try to get out of bed with my hurt ankle! ;)

Our first football game! It was nice to share something he loves to much.

R T 44! ;)

chocolate/vanilla iceCREAM cone

The day of the invention of INternity.

When he pointed out to me how messed up the blog numbers are.

Waking up in his arms after falling asleep there.

you DA you DA bes.

Coming home for lunch and finding the cheese puffs already there!

When I ordered at the wrong firehouse.

When I saw him walk into the house after his trip to dallas. pure. joy

Trying to dye my hair together.

Blue Ray HD on the HD tv where we watch HGTV in HD.

WE.FLY

Making out in the Titanic.

And....

SO SO SO many more wonderful memories but Im running out of time. :(

Enjoying memory lane with me Mr. Hammer?

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Why?! Why would anyone want to live anywhere close to snow?! I just can not understand this. Snow is evil. Lucky for me a have this amazing husband who humors my hatred for snow and drives me everywhere. :) One day we are living far far away from snow! :) plus... cold and snow makes Charly not want to pee outside... we can just add that to the evil list of snow.

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Today is a sad day. I woke up and for the first time in a long time I HOPED for snow!! I wanted Mr. Hammer to have to drive me to work because I knew I was going alone today. Its good this way. We have a lot to do and he has some time to do it but still... I WANT HIM WITH ME! ha I know this is sad but we are still in honeymoon mood so its totally accepted. :)

I didnt want this post to be a downer but Im just sitting here at work thinking about what Im gonna have for lunch and sitting in the upstairs of work eating alone for an hour... SAD. Usually the hour of lunch I spend with Mr. Hammer is my saving grace in the horrible 8 hour work day.

Anyway the point is I miss my family! And LOVE them SO much. Kinda like INternity. Well mostly Mr. Hammer but Charly too! I cant wait to come home and see their happy faces! :) Its gonna be a good night.

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Thank you for taking me to Wyoming baby! I had SO much fun with you and the family! But... we need to teach this mut was is and prob isnt a good idea to lick.. ;)

btw.. I cant wait for back to the future and cuddling tonight! :)

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Wyoming

I just wanted to go see my family. I miss them. Well really just my momma. I was all thinking about Christmas and the holidays and my family and well I just wanted to go see them. :)

And Jordan is proposing to his girlfriend today! Im so excited! It will be fun to go to Jordans wedding!

And this is Charlys first road trip! Kierstyn is REALLY excited to see Charly. Im really happy for her to be excited so she can take it out all the time to pee! :)

Im not really looking forward to driving all that way but it doesnt bother me as much as it is going to bother Mr. Hammer.... hes not really a road trip kinda guy. I dont even undstand why?!?! ;)

So now pray for us! Hopefully there is no ice over south pass....

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I never thought I would ever even consider letting PEG depart this family... but I am.

As I have heard once or twice before this is a sign that I do love Mr. Hammer more then PEG! I havent thought about or departed from him. ;)

Told ya baby!

LOVE you!

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A sonic route 44..

YUM!

A sonic RT44..

SLAP!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Thanks for the limeade baby!

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Mr. Hammer and I have a lunch date.

I am excited!

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So I just got back to work from lunch and I forgot my phone.. Not a big deal right??

BIG DEAL!

So I told Tyler and he didnt like that he wouldnt be able to talk to me if he wanted to. I told him its not a big deal just to be at work at five. (He dropped me off) Well then I sat down and I was going to txt him something sweet.. MY PHONE ISNT HERE!

I want it. I miss him.

You are right.

I was wrong.

We need our phones!

Mr. Hammer - 1

Mrs. Hammer - 1

This is not good. ;)

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Mr. Hammer says:

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and....

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mrs. Hammer says:

I love you internity.

Mr. Hammer - 0

Mrs. Hammer - 1

:)

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So it has snowed. UGH. Ice and I are NOT friends. Driving is a nightmare. Thank goodness for Mr. Hammers willingness to drive me everywhere. PEG has done alot of damage to me. Or really I guess I did alot of damage to her... hmm.

On the good side of snow.

Charly is so funny in it. The snow got too deep for him to walk and even hop through so last night when we took him for a walk he kept trying to get into the snow and he would just fall in. Well Charly was smart enough to know he couldnt walk into it so he decided to hop from the sidewalk into the snow. HAHA You could barely see the little guy. Watching him try to get out was funny too.

Charly is such a pain. Esp with his need to chew on EVERYTHING. Including us. :) And his peeing in the house and whining and other such problems.. yada yada... But he has already brought so much joy to this family. (Well I think to both of us. Mr. Hammer has more of a tough love for Charly. :)

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Happy.

I am happy.

I love Mr. Hammer.

I love it when Charly pees outside.

I love to cuddle with Mr. Hammer.

I love it when Charly cuddles with us too.

I love it when Mr. Hammer smiles and I know he is happy too.

I love being a family.

I love all our family.

I love when Mr. Hammer does sexy manly things like cooks on the grill.

I just love being married to Mr. Hammer.

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CHARLY!

This is the name of our new puppy! Yes, we got a puppy! I love him! Thanks Mr. Hammer.

It was funny cause I saw a dog I just loved. I took her to show Mr. Hammer and told him I would like a puppy... the next day.. WE HAVE A PUPPY! He is so cute and he bites and chews on everything and he loves us and is black and just the BEST!

Now this is what Mr. Hammer was afraid of.. He would ask me before we got the puppy if I would love the puppy more then him and I would assure him I loved him so much more then anything else.. EVER. And this remains the truth!!! But I think he is the one with the over powering love for Charly! ;) But I still love Charly! And I still love Mr. Hammer more! :)

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After a long haul of blog numbering screw ups I have figured it out! (i think..) Well here it is.. I want a kitty. I love kitties! I have always had a kitty. Mr. Hammer doesnt like kitties so much.. or AT ALL.. So I have come to a compromise.. a small dog! Named Charly. I am so ecited about my puppy! (Only I still dont have a puppy... but I WILL!) Thanks to Mr. Hammers love!

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One thing I LOVE about my Mr. Hammer besides him being straight up WONDERFUL is that he is so presistent! Somethimes I think I am mad about it but when I sit back and look at it really I love him being that way with me. I think I need a fighter. It just amazes me that everyday I find out something else that makes Mr. Hammer perfect for me! Now.. I just have to try to live up to that.

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I woke up like at six this morning and couldnt go back to sleep. So I rolled over to Mr. Hammer and he woke up so now we are both awake and cant sleep. This should of been a problem. We need sleep.. only we had gone to be around nine so we were all ready to go for the day! So we watched a movie and talked for the hour and a half before I had to go to work. Now I know this doesnt sound all that exciting to yall but really I am posting this for Mr. Hammer and I know he will appreciate it! ha My favorite times with him are right before we go to sleep when he is holding me and telling me how much he cant live without me and when I wake up next to him and hold on to him and not let go. Bedtime is the best time of the day now! Well it always has been.. if you know me at all you know I need about 14 hours of sleep a day but now it has just gotten SO much better! Only 5-6 more hours til bedtime! :)

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I have no good excuses as to why I havent blogged in a while. busy. lazy. etc. But thats ok.. I am now!!

So here it is. I am now Mrs. Hammer! :) I married the most wonderful man. He is my miracle. He is my dream. He is ALL mine! I couldnt have asked for a more beautiful wedding. It was amazing! Tyler looked out of this world handsome. Yada. Yada.

Really now I am just so excited to have our lives together. To be a REAL family with a family plan and one day have a family with him. When I think of my future with him I cant help but smile. There is nothing that makes me more happy then to be with him or to think of him or to do something for him or that would make him happy or to just love him. There is so much love I have for this man! I hope he never wakes up to see what he got himself into marrying me. I dont live up to his AMAZINGness!

I blogged for you my Mr. Hammer.

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GAME DAY

Through Mr. Hammer and I's convos today you wouldnt be able to tell but.. I'm really EXCITED about going to this BYU game with him today! Live sports are great.. even if it is football. Plus.. I love him so I just want to experience with him what seems to make his world go round! I pretty much cant wait!!

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I havent blogged in awhile and I havent heard the end of it so I thought I would take this time to.. blog!

Nothing really is going on besides the fact that Im getting married in 1 WEEK!

Yesterday my handyman superman Mr. Hammer was so amazing last night helping me move and putting together our new stuff for our new apt. Really you should see the man power Mr. Hammer puts out.. AMZING! But then again everything Mr. Hammer does I think is AMAZING so... anyway I know this is scattered but thats kinda how Im feeling right now. :)

I love Mr. Hammer.. Forever!

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you da you da best! you da you da best!

:)

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So I havent been feeling well today and Mr. Hammer has been so good about doing whatever he can to help me feel comfortable. Well of course I had to work still.. I asked him to bring me something before he went to his last class today and not only did he bring me the juice but he left me in the BEST mood. I dont need any material things from my Mr. Hammer. All I need is him. I cant even explain how happy/excited I was to see him (in his pilot pants even!;) and how I still felt that way when he left. He makes my days so bright.. no matter what. I dont know if I could ever live without him. He is my everything. :)

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I am weird.

One of the side effects from this is I get into food ruts. Well I was watching a movie last night that had cheeto puffs in it... I WANT CHEETO PUFFS! Like I said.. weird.

Mr. Hammer is weird.

He was so sweet! He laughed at me for wanting cheeto puffs so bad but then the next day he surprised me with them at lunch! My Mr. Hammer loves me enough he helped in my food craves! I love him! He is weird. We have a good time.

*say chubby bunny*

hahaha

It was like snow! :)

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I was just thinking about my Mr. Hammer and the little moments we have that make me so happy! Like we had just had a seriously awesome moment and he decided to ruin it by saying.. "I have a confession." Say what?? You did not just ruin this moment.. only he made it better! While I was gone he had tried on his wedding ring. He just makes me smile with the little things.

I love the way he smiles when he sees me for the first time in a while.

I love the way he says my name.

I love how he holds my hand everywhere we go.

I love how he makes fun of my English.

I love that we laugh at the stupid things ppl do.. us and others.

I love/hate it when he talks mexican to me. ;)

yada yada...

There are so many things about Mr. Hammer and the things he does that make him perfect for me. Hes a wonderful man... I mean tough/strong and other such manly words. :)

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Mr. Hammer..

I LOVE YOU!

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The last couple days have been happy days. Not that we arent happy. Mr. Hammer always makes me happy but the last couple of days seem to be full of extra laughter and smiles. I love to think about it! I just smile. Really we are stupid. We find this funny. i.e. choc. chip. west. cookies. WHAT? Yeah.. I know. But it still makes me laugh. Being stupid is fun. Being with Mr. Hammer is fun.

21 days and counting...

I cant wait!

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Poor PEG is back in the hospital after being hit.. again. :( So this moring Mr. Hammer and I got up and took her to Preston Watts. Then Mr. Hammer dropped me off at work. Thats the fun part. I know its not fun for him since he is the one doing all the driving but it felt kinda nice to be dropped off by my man for the day. Getting to kiss him good bye before I get out of the car. Like a family. We totally had a "we're a family" moment. I think Im gonna enjoy the next couple of days. :) But Im also going to mourn for my other baby.. PEG. ;)

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Its storming today! I have torn feelings about this storm. On the happy side of things.. Storms can be so very romantic! ;) On the not so happy side of things.. Its not meant to storm again til after my outside wedding!! Anyway.. I wish Mr. Hammer and I didnt have to work so we could sit at home and cuddle watching the storm. Not doing anything and feeling good about not doing anything and not thinking about anything and feeling good about not thinking about doing anything. Just living in the happy moment... Too bad thats not reality.

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I was just sitting at home and thinking about nothing when I realized I wasnt thinking about nothing I was thinking about Mr. Hammer. I was so happy! Even when Im not thinking about him I am thinking about him. He is always on my mind. In everything I do. He is such a huge part of the person I am now. I wouldnt want it any other way!

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Talk about dye nightmare. (Momma you will appreciate this one) Last night about 5pm I realized I hadnt dyed my hair again before these pictures! And.. Janie isnt around anymore to do it! So I asked Mr. Hammer to do it... Yeah that was my fault. I knew I wouldnt be able to hand over the ropes so easily right before something so big.. i.e. engagement pics. He wasnt doing a bad job just not how I wanted. (This is where Momma is laughing. Always making fun of my control issues. ;) So because I couldnt let go and just trust him I got the black dye all over me. Which by the way doesnt just come off. And once again I wasnt able to let go. UGH. Haha but in the end my hair is black.. mostly and lucky for me Mr. Hammer is AMAZING and was so good about my stupid ways. I cant wait for another dying experience chance for me so we can bond over it this time instead of future Mrs. Hammer having a stupid moment.

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Sometimes I feel like Im on a totally different level then Tyler. He out does me in everything. I never seem to be able to live up to him. Which is why Im holding on SO tight. I will never let him go. I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful example of what a person should be. Im so grateful for that. Sometime Im just frustrated with him for being so amazing too. That is wrong. The real problem here is I dont feel like I live up to the person he should be with. The kind of person who will build him up. Not someone like me who needs him to stay afloat. But aside from the fact that I am failing at this.. I never stop trying to be a better person for him. Hopefully one day I can be like him.

Mr. Hammer.. You are

my hero

my love

my inspiration

my best friend

my life

my better half

my EVERYTHING.

Thank you for what you do for me by just being you. You will never know how much love I have for you. Forever I am yours.

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day 6 - 4:46 pm

Mr. Hammer is on his way home!
HAPPINESS!

:)

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day 6 - 1:49pm

I feel totally UGH. My head is pounding and I just got done with coughing like a mad woman (I think that wasnt due to the sickness. Maybe I was choking.. hmm.) I still have to work for 3 more hours and the physical side of life just sucks but all I could think about when I went to lunch was Mr. Hammer. Mr. Hammer and how beautiful the day is! I wished so much he was sharing it with me. Its 71 outside. Just a little chilly and the sun is beaming! Its like the whole universe is just as happy I am that my Mr. Hammer is coming home tonight.

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day 6 - 9:48 am

Today I am sick. Which sucks for many reasons.

one. I have to work.

two. It just plains sucks/is ANNOYING.

three. Today is the day Mr. Hammer comes home and Im feeling like UGH so all I wanna do is sleep.

Talk about bittersweet. I cant seem to get my life straight! Im gonna stay up for you Mr. Hammer but if I am sleeping when you get here.. PLEASE dont be mad. I hurt. :)

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day 5 - 7:25 pm

So I am hanging out with Janie right now. Who I LOVE and ADORE but all I can think about is when I get to call my Mr. Hammer later tonight! This whole being away experience has been held together by our nightly talks. I need them. I long for them. But there is something special about tonights... ITS THE LAST ONE!! My Mr. Hammer is coming home tomorrow!! My dreams are coming true!

:)

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day 5 - 10:58 am

Last night I got pretty much no sleep. I was on the phone with Mr. Hammer all that time! TIRED.. totally worth it!

*he just sent me an email*

Mr. Hammer is AMAZING!!

I miss him.

My Parents have been here helping with wedding and they are about to leave then its a LONG countdown til the return of my MR. HAMMER!

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day 3 - over

I was busy doing wedding and fell horrible that I didnt get to blog. :(

day 4 - 8:12 pm

Its been a hard day and I need my Mr. Hammer. But I know he loves me and would if he could.

I love my Mr. Hammer!

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day 2 - 2:59 pm

I need a hug from my Mr. Hammer.

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day 2 - 11:29 am

I could feel it from the start,

Couldn't stand to be apart.

Something about you caught my eye,

Something moved me deep inside!

Don't know what you did boy but

You had it and I've been hooked ever since.

I told my mother, my brother, my sister and my friend

I told the others, my lovers, both past and present tense.

Everytime I see you everything starts making sense.

Just do your thang honey!

Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you

Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do(what you do).

You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon.

You got soul, you got class.

You got style with your bad a** - oh yeah!

Ain't no other man its true

- all right -

Ain't no other man but you.

Just do your thang honey!

Never thought I'd be all right.

No, no, no!

Till you came and changed my life.

Yeah, yeah, yeah!

What was cloudy now is clear!

Yeah, yeah!

You're the light that I needed.

You got what I want boy, and I want it!

So keep on givin' it up!

Tell your mother, your brother, your sister, and your friend.

And the others, your lovers, better not be present tense.

Cause I want everyone to know that you are mine and no one else's!

Oooooooo, oh!

Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you

Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do(what you do).

You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon.

You got soul, you got class.

You got style your bad a** - oh yeah!

Ain't no other man it's true

- all right -

Ain't no other man but you.

Break it down now!

Ain't no other, ain't, ain't no other! (other)

Ain't no other, ain't, ain't no other LOVER!

Ain't no other, I, I, I need no other!

Ain't no other man but you!

Ohhhh!

You are there when I'm a mess

Talk me down from every ledge

Give me strength, boy you're the best

You're the only one who's ever passed every test

Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you

Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do(what you do).

You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon.

(You're the kinda guy, a girl finds oooo yeahh)

You got soul, you got class.

You got style your bad a** - oh yeah!

Ain't no other man it's true

- all right -

Ain't no other man but you.

And now I'm tellin' you,

so ain't no other man but you.

Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you

Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do(what you do).

You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon.

You got soul, you got class.

You got style your bad a** - oh yeah!

Ain't no other man it's true

- all right -

Ain't no other man but you.

L

(look it up baby. Ain't No Other Man: Christina Aguilera)

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day 2 - 8:58 am

Last night was the hardest. It was his first night away and I wasnt dealing well. Then I was mean. I wish I didnt have so much pride that I could see how much he loves me and overcome it. Ok thats a lie. I see it. I know it. I feel his love. I just have a hard time overcoming my own issues. UGH stupid teenager.

The night ended fabulous! I fell asleep talking to him. Maybe this was mean also but I enjoyed feeling like I was with him all night. Waking up and my first thought was him and us being together before I realized that my phone was dead and because of that so was the alarm and Im late for work. TOTALLY worth it! :)

I just love him. I hope everyone can see how much! I wish I could explain it all to everyone.. but there are some words just for him. Even if that mean the rest of the world doesnt hear it and know its alright because the one that means the world to me knows. Thats all I need.

L

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day 1 - 8:18 pm

I just finished emailing my Mr. Hammer when Janie showed up! ;)

L

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day 1 - 6:38 pm

I got home today and walked in the door to an empty house. One of the worst feeling I have felt I think. Mr. Hammer better not die on this trip! So I tried to distract myself with some HGTV... the TV wont work! Of course that would happen and I know about nothing about how all that crap works.

On a good note. I went to the gym today. Havent been since Mr. Hammer and I begun. I save my spare time for him. Altho the gym needs to start riding up front in my game of life! and... Janie is coming over tonight to plan wedding!! Im excited. We always have a good time and I get to talk non-stop about my Mr. Hammer. It is OUR wedding. (As I was reminded last night ;)

L

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day 1 - 4:44 pm

I just got a message from Mr. Hammer!!! :)

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day 1 - 2:48 pm

I had been waiting all day to hear that my Mr. Hammer didnt die in his stupid airOplane on his way to his stupid football game and all along I had a txt that must of got lost in the vortex or something! Sad. He didnt die yet. Happy.

I just had a bragging moment about him tho. Not that this makes up for him leaving me for like a million years to see a football game but... I went back to the parts department at work and they were on the computer reading something about this game my Mr. Hammer is headed to right now. So.. I was like hey my fiancé is going to that! (insert huge proud bragging smile here)

L

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day 1 - 11:36 am

I just am missing my Mr. Hammer. Im thinking about him and how he is having a blast on a big airOplane. Mr. Hammer loves airOplanes!

I love Mr. Hammer!

L

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day 1 - 8:09 am

Said goodbye to Mr. Hammer. (stupid football) Nothing has happened. I went to sleep woke up for work on time. Got up. Got ready. Left for work. On time. Sad.

I was walking through the house thinking and feeling kinda lonely. I guess its just the knowledge that I know he is gone and not coming home to me tonight.

I closed with him last night. I just wanted to spend our last night before this seperation together. Only I got sick of that real quick. For many reasons.. So I decided to spice it up by talking to him. It worked. ;)

I wore my ring to bed last night. On purpose. It was one of those nights. Prob will be for the rest of this time in hell. (Baby, I was talking about the place)

At work now. Should be working. Im gonna go do that. Got alot to do at work and tonight... Momma comes tomorrow!

note to Mr. Hammer: You looked nice today! Wish I could be with you to enjoy the sight! ;)

L

26

In about 24 hours my Mr. Hammer is leaving me for 120 hours. This is going to be 5 VERY long days. We havent spent a free minute apart for the last 1632 hours. He is my life. I need him. This is going be a slow count down. Time decided its gonna take its sweet time over the next 5 days. Stupid time. Doesnt it know its screwing up our we're new and happy and in love and cant be away from each other time!

o yeah..

STUPID football.

L

25

I am so grateful for an AMAZING man!

I have been having freak out moment after freak out moment about this wedding. Stressed to the max. Thats how I am. I stress.

I know he has alot going on too. I forget that sometimes tho. But he just takes my crap in stride and loves me still. Why? Love maybe? I dont know but I want him to know how grateful I am for him and his love!

I need to take lessons from him. I always try to be there and be what he needs but I fall short 90% of the time. He just lets it go and keeps loving me.

I act like a 4 year old. He loves.

I forget something important. He loves.

I say something mean. He loves.

I forget to leave him a water to drink even tho he had just said he was thristy. He makes fun of me then loves.

The list continues. You can see it in his eyes that all he wants is for me to be happy. No matter the cost. Thats just the thing. I dont want to cost him anything. I want to be what he needs. I will try even harder. All I want out of life when it comes down to it is Mr. Hammers happiness. For us to have a happy life full of love and adventure.

Thanks.

You. Are. The. Man.

L

24

On Friday Tyler and I went to the rodeo/carnival with Janie and Brandon!

Pretty much an AMZING night.

HIGHLIGHTS:

• Love
• Dog riding monkeys
• Music
• Janie/Brandon
• People
• Stupid little kids
• Animals
• Rides
• Lights
• Ferris Wheel

We rode the Ferris Wheel and I asked Mr. Hammer to ask me to marry him at the top of the Ferris Wheel and he did.. EVERY time we were at the top! Except twice. Once while we were in a fight and once while we were making up. :) The kids below us loved watching Janie and I kissing our men. HA Reminds me of when I used to think that was gross.. ha

Then I really wanted to ride this ride called the Spin Out. I was so excited! Mr. Hammer had warned me he might get sick but I just really wanted to ride this ride! So he went. SUCH A GOOD MAN! Well he got sick. And now I felt horrible cause he got sick sick. Like I was scared sick. :( Im gonna try and not be so selfish in the future but it just blows my mind that you can get sick on those rides so I didnt really think it through.. O well. Hes better now! :)

Also .. 10.08.09 .. :)

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Lets get married.

L

22

Mr. Hammer is sick. It sucks. Bad. Only its all my fault. I got sick and gave it to him and his body went and ran with the idea of making it horrible for him. Ontop of it all he has to work and go to school everyday.

Future Mrs. Hammer also doesnt feel well due to other reasons. Which also sucks. Bad. I cant take care of him very well and he just thinks hes annoying me.

We have problems. :)

But not to fear! This weekend neither of us work and we are sitting around watching Phantom of the Opera and eating. Eating what I make... yes. That is correct. I am gonna try to cook. Dont go getting all excited. Im talking simple! Like hot dogs, mac 'n' cheese, pancakes, and other easy type stuff. Mr. Hammer is gonna be begging to go out to eat after he realizes this is what I plan to "cook". But you gotta start somewhere! And I want to be able to cook for our kids one day so I'm starting now! On the easy stuff.

Although I did make this awesome sugar cookie pizza last night that is prob ruined due to the whipped cream melting. Which kinda sucks cause I really wanted it and then we were too sick to eat it. UGH. Life. :) Maybe I'll just eat it anyways. Who knows.

Anyway. I love my Mr. Hammer. This weekend is going to be good. Puts my mind to ease about making it through the rest of the work week!

L

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I have been really busy lately and havent had the time to blog! :(

And I still dont.. :(

But I wanted Mr. Hammer to have a note full of love to read today even if it is nothing special.

Ill make it up to you. ;)

L

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In about 33 mins a weekend of pure happiness begins!

This is all.

:)

L

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I love My Mr. Hammer.

I like to keep him humble by reminding him he is a stupid man. ;)

But... everybody needs to know...

My Mr. Hammer is a genius!!!

1100

L

18

I have love for Mr. Hammer.

I think he is an amzing person. He thinks he can be better. How could he be any better?? It blows my mind! What if he becomes better?? I already don't live up to his greatness.. hmm I better get on this train. fast.

Maybe if I help him be better I will be better in the process too and at least wont fall even more behind in the 10 point scale he has conquered so well!

Good thinking me.

Good thinking Mr. Hammer.

L

...

Are we gonna watch Blue Ray HD HD Blue Ray on the HD TV where we watch HGTV in HD on the HD TV with HD dish?

L

17

Yesterday we had a birthday in the family! Mr. Hammer is now 25. And for all of those who wonder not only can he rent a car now but he just so happens to drive that much better then he did two days ago so that he insurance goes down!! ;)

It was AMAZING! It was filled with balloons, surprises, love and tissues! :( Last weekend I was sick and Mr. Hammer was so sure he was too tough for it.. he wasnt. Which is sad cause he had to be sick on one of the best days of the year! We still had a good time tho. He also has great friends who wanted to make it special too! Shout out to Billy, Jared and Nick!

They brought him a cake that I am enjoying very much!

I just love birthdays! I love balloons! I love cake!

Birthdays are just so special because its a holiday that only you and your loved ones celebrate. So not only do you get to have big family/friend gatherings like the other big holidays but you are the only ones so you dont have to fight shopping lines the day before and places are open the day of! Its great! Not to mention you get to do whatever your heart desires! Did I mention cake and balloons?!

Anyway, so aside from the sickness we had a wonderful celebration of Mr. Hammer's come unto earth day!

L

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I really dont have anything to blog about but Im bored. I really want to go take a shower but I have to sit here waiting for the dish guy so Mr. Hammer can have his HD tv. So here I am. Blogging. Waiting.....

Its raining today so that means Im going to have a bad hair day.

Its Amy's birthday.

Tyler's birthday is on Monday!

I have to work Monday.

:(

I have no idea what we are doing on Monday.

I think we need balloons.

It is a birthday.

What are birthdays without balloons?!

This is random.

I think I am done.

My Mr. Hammer is at work.

I miss him.

He is such an AMAZING guy. He is always thinking about me. Always wanting my happiness. Sometimes I make it hard for him. Im sorry. I love this about him.

I also LOVE my ring!

L

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So.. for Tyler birthday on Monday I wanted to give him something not just amazing but special and... something I would enjoy too! (yes, selfish. I understand this. ha.) My Momma took this AMAZING picture of us taking off in the plane to go home. (hes my pilot) Not only is a beautiful with the mountains behind us and the storm chasing us but it was like we were taking off for our life together. We had just told my parents we were getting married. It was official. No backing out now. :) Well I blew it up really big. 24x36 and framed it and on the frame with I put on there we.fly. It also means pretty much "i.love.you". I wanted it to hang in our home that he just moved into. Well... we had it in his dads truck. Its one of those new ones with stupid auto seats that move to where we had them or whatever. Well when you turn the car off they move again. I think to the default position. Who knows. Stupid technology. But it moved back and crunched the fame. Which broke the glass. Which ruined the picture. So in the 10 min he had this gift of love ;) it was ruined. This was tragic!! And I mean TRAGIC! But not to fear! When my dad heard he wanted to help so we are getting a new one! THANKS DAD! I really appreciate it! I really wanted this to be apart of our home. And now it can be again. Just a side note. When we first started dating I framed matching pictures for us... this same night he ruined that one too. Hmmm? Is this a sign??

I LOVE YOU MR. HAMMER!

L

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This is for my Mr. Hammer.

I love you.

forever.

Never ending. Eternity.

I cant even think of a time I didnt love you.

I always love you.

pinky swear.

L

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I dont really have the time today to post but I wanted my Mr. Hammer to see something and know I was thinking about him when he checked the blog.

we.fly

Those words will always mean what they do..

but now they also come with a memory. haha.;)

L

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This past weekend.. I wish there were words to explain.

I found the dress of my dreams! And veil! (In fact I think I might like the veil more then I do the dress!) It was the first dress I tried on and I just knew it was "the one". So that didnt take too long. Really I am excited because its something that makes it that much more real that we are getting married! Sometimes I need that reminder. It can get frustrating sometimes when I think its just never going to happen.

I had another moment this weekend when I just KNEW.. only Im not sharing it on here. But I could feel it. I knew he is mine. foever. I know we are gonna have a wonderful life! It was one of those moments that I felt so connected to him. Like our spirits were talking to each other. Like they were coming home. Like they had been waiting so long to find each other and they finally settled down together. Never to be seperated. Total happiness at peace together.

Now if you think the greatness of this string of great events is over.. ITS NOT! Tonight is the night we get the key to our home. Where we will be living when we finally get married! Im just so excited to start on it. To make it ours. Have it feel like our home. Someplace we will want to come home to. To be together. To share.

Im sure there are moments from this weekend I am missing cause it was just filled!

I am just overflowing happiness all around!

L

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joy.over.load.

:)

L

10

I had to leave early this morning for training in SLC. So basically its been a long day and its not near to being over!

Ok. So I hate garbage! HATE it. Esp having to take it out. I knew I needed to take mine out. In fact it was on the list of things I needed to do when I got home. Well when I got home My Wonderful Mr. Hammer had taken out the garbage amoung other great things! Including leaving me the sweetest note. I just smile thinking about it! :) I love him. I know he loves me. He thought about me and how I hate garbage so he did it for me! It means alot to me. He is so much better of a person then I EVER thought would want me!

Grateful I is!

L

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Last night wasnt the perfect example of this because I was sleeping but I was still feeling it inside. Anways, I just LOVE it when Tyler comes over and is just SO excited to see me! Just LOVE it! Makes my heart pound like its gonna explode. I love EVERY moment where its plain as day that he just straight up as my momma puts it.. adores me. conceited? na.. cause I adore him!

What I want to talk about it also just as exciting...

We are home shopping! And yes I meant home. We are shopping for our first home together. I am E.X.C.I.T.E.D!!

That is all.

:)

L

8

Two things..

(1)

I got onto fb today to see what was going on when I saw that my Mr. Hammer used a picture of us for his profile picture. I know this is nothing but it made my day! Just a little pick me up. He always does these little things that Im sure he doesnt even think about that actually send me on a hgh!

(2)

Wow! Hes an incredible guy! Todays work day has been stressful. Then Tyler tells me hes got 2 weeks to find a place to live. Not just any place but "our" place. What is to be our new home. Then my Momma called and we started talking wedding stuff which just gets me stressed. So here I am just living in "ugh" when really I should be thinking.. This is the beginning of our new lives! We are a family. This is happy. This is what Tyler tells me. I still find it hard to let go of the stress. But on the way back to work I passed a car wreck and its sad but it put things into a little better light for me. I love him. I love that we are starting our new lives together. Its the most exciting thing EVER! I havent wanted anything more in my life then I want to be with him for the rest of forever. So with my amazing and calm husband to be as a prime example Im going to concentrate on all the happiness that is to come and that is happening right now!

P.S.

Sorry I was stressed earlier babe. I know you didnt mind so much but I want you to know how GREAT of a person you are! How much I look up to you and how you handle situations! Im sorry I dont live up to your high standards but I am/will always try!

we.love

L

7 !

OKAY.

Gather around the campfire. Its story time!

I knew we were getting married. I knew about the ring. I knew.. I knew.. What I didnt know was when and how. The two most important out of all of these! He was acting weird about yesterday. Just little things. Like he wanted to leave for SLC as early as possible. Why? Jared didnt fly in til 1140 p.m. (We were going to SLC to pick up Jared) I figured he had the ring. I KNEW I wanted it. Just read yesterdays post. Plus I just knew. I KNEW! ;) I was telling Janie all day yesterday I felt like it was time! Only little did I know.. she actually knew it was time.

Well long story shorter but still long..

We left for SLC late because Tylers flight was also later then thought. It was a fine ride. I wasnt sure what was gonna on in his head. He had had a hard day so he was venting a little. Not a good sign for what I wanted. We stopped and had dinner in Ogden. Even though he thinks I hated it.. I DIDNT! I was jsut so excited to be with him. period. We got to SLC about 10. By this point in time I figured I was feeling wrong and we werent getting engaged. There was still this one problem.. He was still acting weird. So now I start to freak out that I had done something to irrate him. I mean I wouldnt be surprised at all. He was so concentrated on being weird he even tried to wound PEG. Luckily for his lifes sake PEG is WonderWoman and can handle stupid drivers! ;) We ended up at temple square. Now it was my turn to be weird. Only I kinda wasnt being weird I was just pondering. I experience so many emontions when Im on temple square. Its such a humbling place. To think of the lives that went in to build this temple but most importantly what a beautiful GREAT gift it is. So I guess I was acting kinda weird. (ill work on that :) It was really nice to sit there with the love of my life and think about our lives together and what the Lord has in store for us! While we were there I asked when he was going to ask me to marry him?? HAHA I know.. This is so me though. I dont beat around the bush! Well he told me to "hold my horses". ;) So now Im thinking Im never gonna be able to tell anyone about us! I just wanted to tell people SO bad! Well we went and got Jared and headed home. I ended up driving the last little bit while he slept. So we had our "top secret" night in SLC and he was sleeping on the way home. Tonight was not the night. We dropped Jared off and went home. I had a hard time getting the door open and complaining about how bad I had to pee when the door opens and I see the most romantic thing... candles and roses EVERYWHERE! I stood there in the doorway. In total shock. In total amazement. In complete love. The roses lead to my bed where sat the ring surrounded by the words written in rose pedals.... WILL YOU MARRY ME By this point in time I am shaking. Tearing up. Trying to wrap my head around it. He is talking to me. I can hear him and my heart is understanding what he is saying but I wouldnt be able to repeat it to you now. He gets down on his knee and asks me to marry him. I have never felt such pure happiness in my life. Not only is it something I want and am feeling that and his too but I can feel Gods love for us. How happy he is for us. How he wants us together forever as much as we do.

When I look down at my hand I still get chills. I cant believe someone so wonderful would want to spend the rest of forever with me. Wants to share every moment of our lives together. BIG and little. I am so grateful for him. For what he has done to my life. For the kind of person he is and the kind of person he helps me be. I know we are gonna not be "peachy" 24/7 but I do know there is no one else I would want to endure to the end with. He is my it. He is my love. He is my life. I wish there were words enough to share with you how I really feel but this will have to do.

we.fly

L

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I was in the same room as it last night! It being the ring!

The perfect ring!

Its not so much that I want the ring.. well I DO.. its more I want to be his. Always and forever. Now I know we are already forever. I mean come on.. we have a FAMILY PLAN! How much more forever can you get?! ;) But really I want him to actually ask me to marry him. I want to know he wants me and to be reminded everytime I look at my hand and most of all I want everyone else to know..

I am taken.

I am happy.

I am loved.

and most of all that..

I love him.

L

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Yesterday I played sidekick to my Superman. We worked sizzler manager and even tried to reenact the Titanic. Ok not really. But we had to count the meat in the freezer and even my toes were cold by the time we got out of there. The good news is not only did I get to see my love for 2 extras hours that day.. but I beat my high scores on this stupid planes game on my phone!! :) ha That night they had a party at sizzler and I had been trying to get ahold of Janie and she wasnt anwsering my calls or txts and I was scared she was dead. This of course was stupid (see a pattern here?) but I was worried. I was gonna just go by myself so Tyler could go to his party. He came with me. (We can add this to his Superman tally!) About a min after we left she called.. yeah. SORRY BABE! Really tho it all worked out for which I think will go on my top 10 favorite moments with Tyler. All we did too was get Wendys and sit on the floor and eat. He did homework. I played planes. Basically nothing. But I felt so close to him though. When I looked at him I thought I hadnt seen anything so amazing in my whole life. I could stare at him forever and it would never get old. That tingling feeling of love I get will never go away. Or the pride I feel to know his is mine. I am his. My spirit just shoots up and is like DONT WAKE UP. The best part is... I dont have to wake up! For some stupid reason that I dont understand the Lord blessed ME with him.. yeah ME! But I sure am grateful. Last night was just filled with love. No huge events or lavish whatevers.

Just me and him.

Our family.

Together.

Forever.

L

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My Superman

One of my cousins today commented on a picture I have of us on fb. In the comment she mentioned how Tyler was my superman. I TOTALLY agree! He flies, hes gorgeous, has super powers, hates those who do evil against me ;), would give his everything for my happiness, he loves those he serves, yada yada (all those other superhero type things), and most of all he "saves" my life everyday!

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we.fly

we.love

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Last night I was at Tyler's apt when he came home. Which is another "awe, we are gonna be a family" moment. When I heard him and turned around to look at him he had the biggest grin on his face. :) He just looked at me grinning for the rest of the night there. I can't wait til we get to come home to each other! SMILING! :)

Another happy day.

L

1

We (Tyler and I) are like a real family!!

Today we got a new phone for me and made a family plan out of it.

Now, this may sound like a nothing thing.. but it was extremely exciting to me! Its just makes it seem that much more real. We really are gonna be a real family. :)

Today was a good day.

L

..

Popcorn?

I know right.

Believe me it makes sense in my head.

The quote about is my all time favorite! When I think about it I think of stringing popcorn on thread for the christmas tree. I have very few memories from when I lived in New Zealand and this is one of them.

I plan on sharing my moments that make up the popcorn on my string.

:)

L